Hair... and LOVE! :)

Wellll..... remember how I talked about my hair... and I wanted a new look or something...

Well..... let me just show you....

Yes! I cut my BANGS! :) and this is something TOTALLY new and very different for me! Seriously! I've NEVER had bangs like this before... when I cut it last night, I went downstairs and asked my husband "So what do you think??" and he turned around and was like.. what the?!? lol then he said "did you cut it because you want to look like beyonce???" lol... I couldn't stop laughing, cause we watched this music video of her's and he thought that I was going for that look....

Beyonce in her music video "Countdown"

Ok, now after watching the video again, I guess I can see where he's coming from.. maybe she inspired me subconsciously and I didn't know it.. lol... Who knows maybe for halloween I'll bust out in black skinny jeans, a black turtle neck, pink heels, stick a head band on my hair then i'm set! lol. Anywayz, I do love the new look.. I feel a little more like 25 years old, if you know what I mean.  It's just nice to throw something different in the mix.  I went to work this morning and saw a good friend of mines, she did compliment it, and said she liked it.

When I got home this morning, my husband got to see me really good, in the daylight (versus late at night) and he said he really did like my new hairstyle.  That it's something new, but he really does like it... then he expressed to me that I was beautiful... *blushing* ;)  When he says that, it just reminds me of the first day he called me beautiful... when we first started dating he told me about how other girls may be pretty, but to him I was the only one who was beautiful.... and all these years later I'm glad to know he still feels the same way, cause I know I definitely still feel the same (even more) for him today... He always knows just what to say to make me fall in love with him all over again...

April 2007... when we knew we'd be ETERNAL :)

I love you forever baby, this song is dedicated to you! :)

This guy (Blair Perkins) sings Beyonce's song "1+1" which is one of my faves, my husband thinks he sings it better than beyonce.. I do agree he sings it pretty good, but really no one can outdo beyonce! lol.  Oh and he sounds just like Tevin Campbell!!! :)

Now I Can Say It... I LOVE Blogging!

Just the other day I told my husband that if I could choose between facebook and blogging, I would choose blogging.  Then he asked me if that meant I was deleting my facebook and I said NO! lol.  I really have come to liking, correction, loving it! Because it's given me that motivation again to keep a journal, well kind of.  I don't write down EVERY single thing I'm feeling, but I do have at least some type of way of writing down something that goes on with me.  I've also been able to meet, and get to know a lot of people through blogging.  Like just the other day I came across this blog, I read it while I was in gate training (at the delta reservations building) and I almost about cried because of what she was sharing.  It's things like that, that you can't get on facebook.

Anyhow, yesterday was a day fullll of baking.  Me and husband were helping a friend out with his fundraiser, so I baked chocolate chip banana bread with walnuts for him to sell.  I made about 90 banana bread (including the ones I made this morning).  I've never made so much of anything like that at one time.  I was soooo tired too because like I mentioned, I've been in gate training for Delta.  So this week was a full work week for me.  On thursday we had training from 8-3pm, and then we voted on coming back at 12am to finish off training at the airport.  What was suppose to be only 4 hours, turned into 6 hours (don't you love that lol) and so i got home at 630am and went right into mashing banana's, and baking the loaves.  So from 7am till 7pm at night I was baking banana bread.  Talk about overkill. lol.  Anyhow, today is my day off and tomorrow is my first day at the gates.  I wanted to do something fun today, then I looked out the window, looked alright, opened the window, closed it and decided we'll do something fun at home. lol.  (Just another perk to having your own place.. u can have stay at home activities!) Well, I'm still waiting to do just that. lol.


Moving on.. I got sidetracked and just decided that I want to cut my hair.  If you don't know my hair story.. then I'll tell you.. I have dry, frizzy, nappy hair.  Before, I would ALWAYS straighten my hair.  I even invested in a CHI and used it for like 4 years until the plug went out on me.  Well I survived throughout fall and winter without really straightening my hair.. which in returned allowed me to get use to my own hair, and I loved it.  My hair doesn't grow very fast, so it was just nice for it to have been at the length it was when it was curly.

This was a year ago, when I was getting use to my natural hair (and I was wayyy skinnier then.. lol.. Ugh)

This was in January of this year (I believe) and it was full, curly, but manageable... and I was still skinnier lol

 Well, of course I decided that I wanted to have a new look, now I wish I didn't, so I decided to dye my whole head black (btw, I never dyed my hair either for months, which was a BIG thing for me cause I usually dye my hair every few months cause I have gray hair).  So in February I went to a salon they dyed my hair and put in red streaks.  Well, you couldn't really see the streaks with red hair, so what did I do.. straighten my hair... (biiig mistake lol)  Then those red streaks turned brown, and I hated it.  So I re-dyed those brown streaks red (another big mistake).

Here you can see my "red" (reddish brown) streaks.. and the forming of my double chin.. ugh! lol

 Then in March (or was it April.. I think it was April) I had a face-to-face interview with Delta Airlines, and I didn't think it was appropriate to walk in for an interview with my hair looking like that.  Usually I dye my hair using Ganier Nuctrisse products like this one, but this one stinking time (in how many years of using Ganier) I used a Clairol product, but I had to dye my hair twice to get rid of the red and brown in my hair.  Yes I know it totally fried my hair, but I know if I had stuck to my usual, Garnier, it most likely wouldn't have turned out like this...

In May when I started training with Delta.. This is my hair after it dried up with conditioner in it... and I gained a little weight here.. hehe

This was actually before I started at delta in May.. As you can tell my hair went flat and just wavy looking...

My hair became very limp, and dead.  It was not as curly as it was, no matter what I used.  It was almost as if I relaxed my hair, which I NEVER did or will ever do. So then what do I do... I cut it... and I cut it really short.  Now I REALLY have to keep my hair straightened so it looks decent.  It's taken some time to get use to it... i just wish I didn't care so much.  It's just hair, if I had it my way I would shave my head and wear a wig. lol.. NO FO REAL! lol

But now it's shorter.. and I'm fatter (just thought I'd throw that in there lol) and yeah, I miss my hair.  I wonder though, you always hear about women going through hair changes when they're pregnant or whatever.  Well I know I'm not pregnant but still, maybe my hormones is catching up the hair part of the pregnancies before. lol. Idk.  I think I'm talking to much about my hair, but I just thought I'd share.. cause it's my blog and I can. lol.

So thanks for reading, hope you gained something from it today! lol. Good day ya'll! ;)

That time again...

Today was a good day, though I received my "monthly gift" and didn't want it.  I know in due time the Lord will allow us to have baby #3 (technically 4) again, but like I said, it's all in due time.  I try not to figure or sit on why I haven't conceived yet, since my miscarriage, but instead I just go with the flow.  But I ain't gonna lie, it's a waiting game every month, and every month I'm hoping my 'friend' doesn't come, but if it does, it's ok, it's just another way of the Lord practicing patience with me.  I almost thought this time was it, until this morning I saw my 'friend' had come.  Now if this is gonna be TMI for ya, I suggest ya stop reading now, cause I might go in a little detail here (but not graphic details).  Usually I would always get my 'friend' in the beginning of the month, then when I miscarried at the end of the month, my friend would come at the end of the month now.  So when september rolled around, and I had no friend yet, I thought maybe that meant something, because I'm NEVER late, and I NEVER have been.  So September 25th passes, 26th, 27th, 28th, 29th, 30th.. and still no 'friend'.  October 1st, nothing, 2nd, nothing, and then the 3rd, wallah.. my 'friend' arrives.  (Booo) I have no explanation for it, but I figure my body want's it's original date back.  (It's a woman thang... lol)

It's been kind of an eye-opener for me, and makes me regret even pausing on having kids.  Though at the moment it seemed like the best option for us, I never realized that it could've made things harder for us afterwards.  I've heard of stories where the IUD ruined things for other women, and they still have yet to conceive again, and then for some, it wasn't a problem. I guess I was hoping I would be those 98% (don't quote me on that) that wouldn't have any problems afterwards.  I still have hope, I was once upon a time pregnant after removing my IUD, so that's hope for me.  Like I said, it's all in due time, I know the Lord has a reason and plan for our little family.  So i'll keep striving to do my best, and hope that one of these days, my 'friend' doesn't come and 9 months later we'll welcome another child into this world.

Until then, I have my loves to keep me company... ;)

 

Weaning and things...

Well, we are now we're back in the swing of things and we've both been working trying to catch up with all we missed. I've also been trying to wean Kesaia. She's now 18 months and I'm ready to stop. So tonight is actually day 2 or night 2 of weaning, and surprisingly she's not acting like she did last night, she's just curled up in my arms and closing her eyes, trying to sleep (let's hope I don't jinx myself lol). Last night was a different story, she kicked and screamed then knocked out (probably from being so tired from her crying) then she woke up 5 hours later, nkicked and screamed again then slept for another 4 hours. I think she is understanding now that I wont be bfing her anymore. The decision to stop basically came down to one thing... her teeth. I endured most of her biting, but the last time was a bleeder and that's when I knew I needed to be done. I do have to say, I loved bfing, and shes very healthy because of it. I've only bf my kids and so I wouldn't even know where to start with formula feeding, but to be honest, I wouldn't do it. I plan to bf all my children, its something only I can give to my kids, and thats starting them on the right path to a healthy life. Anyhow, didn't mean to go all preachy on ya (can you blameme? I was a breastfeeding peer counselor once upon a time lol)... But I'm happy to say now at the end of me writing this blog, my daughter has fallen asleep on her own!!! Woo-hoo!!!! :)

Back in UT

So we are now back from our little vacation in Hawaii.  And can I tell you, it was awesome! While we were there, we went and did some shopping, got all the little candies and treats that friends requested, and then we had a little bbq at my house.   Another thing I love about Hawaii, you can bbq whenever you like! lol.  When we pulled up to the house, my kids were in their diapers, while they took turns going on bike rides with Aunty Chelly.

Sunday was Bess's birthday, so she came over later and we hung out.  We bbq'd again, and had some yummy pork chops, chicken, redondo hot dogs, and short ribs.  We ate until we were full and then ate again! lol. Our original plan was to leave back to Utah on Monday night, but I convinced hubby for us to stay just a little bit longer.  So on Monday we went to town, cruised a little bit at Ala Moana Center (the mall), and then did some shopping at Ross in Kaneohe.  Saw a really good friend there, she was also visiting from Arizona, so it was nice to catch up and meet her little daughter.  After our little shopping trip we went home, and knocked out.

On Tuesday, we went to Hukilau beach.  It was SOOOO nice to go swimming, because for some reason whenever we come to Hawaii we NEVER go swimming.  Baby Moe loved the beach, not so much being in the water, but he loved playing on the sand, and throwing sand at us.  Kesaia on the other hand, wasn't feeling too well anyways so she hated it.  She busted out in hives, we weren't too sure if it was an allergic reaction to something or what.  But it never really went away, even as we boarded the plane she still had red spots everywhere, but what's weird is the closer we got to the mainland, the better she got.  Now we're home in Utah, and she's back to normal! lol.  We sooo need to get her body use to Hawaii. lol. (Anyways, back to the beach...) Moe had lots of fun, and I'm glad he did.  We swam for about an hour, and then left because they were getting cold.

Later on that day Fehi and I went on a date (we always go on one when my mom comes to town, or when we are in Hawaii, just cause we have lots of babysitters lol).  We went and ate at the new "Island Feast" (formerly known as Gateway) at PCC.  Let me tell you, the building itself is BEAUTIFUL and HUGE! And the food was awesome! If you are looking for good polynesian food, at a buffet, there you go! Of course, I would add in more Hawaiian food, like lomi lomi salmon, chicken long rice, lau lau, etc.  But that's just me ;) lol.  We had a little (or a lot) of everything.  And then afterwards we watched the nighshow (again lol).  We loved it though, especially just having "us" time.

Hawaii is always the "refresher" for me.  It's like a reset button, I come there relax, and then head back home and get back into mode.  I love it, and will ALWAYS want to go back.  One of these days, I hope we find ourself there permanently. :) Btw, pics coming soon!!!